I feel recently like I'm just going through the motions, waiting for something to occur. Analyzing the news and world events and looking for links to the coming changes is nearly all consuming to my mind at times, and going to work and getting through the day is seeming like a monumental task, and an equally large drain on my energy.
That being said, I have what would probably be considered a "good" job. Better than most people my age, but its at a small company, and there are downsides to that. For instance I work an extra half hour per day compared to my friends at most bigger companies that do the same kind of work. Doesn't sound like much, but its literally the difference between walking home in sunlight and going home in the dark.
Anyways, I feel at this stage in human history I should be spending my energy "fighting the good fight" instead of just going to work day in and day out, trying to get ahead in a corrupt social structure that (with any luck) isn't going to be around much longer. I have a family to support though, and I do feel that I've been put on this path, worked where I have and ended up where I am for a specific reason... I guess I just need to see some sort of sign or get some reassurance that I am doing the right thing.