My dearest friend and confidant has to my shock and horror embraced christian fundamentalism. I cannot bear the change this has brought and the barren wasteland it has made of our friendship. For the last couple of years I have had a meaningful and close friendship with Denise. We met at a psychic experiences group meeting. She showed up one night looking desperately for answers. She told the group between sobs and tears about crazy and frightening psi experiences she was having. Clearly she had profound, rare abilities but my heart went out to her because she was in so much pain and confusion. Afterwards, I heard her say she was confused on how to drive home from there so I offered to have her follow me in her car until she could get on the right road home. She was so grateful for that and later we became friends. She helped me out financially when she found out I had car problems and it saved my bacon and helped turn my life around. I am far from my family and go to her house for Thanksgiving and even Christmas sometimes. She is also gifted with wisdom and has helped me sort through confusion and pain from losses and get my feet planted on the ground again. I am a liberal politically and she is deeply conservative so I had to learn to focus on what we have in common(huge) and try to avoid political stuff(small). The huge reward was to have a caring and amazing friendship with a person who gets me and loves me......so much so, it brings me to tears.
And we shared a number of deep fascinations: UFO's and aliens, ESP phenomenon, the nature of life, and increasing our connection with divinity. I've spent many nights on her back deck UFO-watching the sky and spotting UFO craft and mysterious lights that we BOTH saw together-so reassuring to have confirmation! We both were trying hard to understand UFO experiences and about ESP. (BTW the two seem to be intertwined)....
Me: seen some craft flying around and done some remote viewing / Her: had a craft hover over her back yard 150' away, (with missing time) then had fighter jets chase them off, then having her lifelong psychic abilities explode uncontrollably afterwards ...
Me: learning to increase and recognise my psi abilities-had some success / Her: invited to parties of UFO researchers, experiencers and psychics and becoming friends with amazing people with startling stories that made my hair stand on end. / Me: can sense when there's a speed trap ahead / Her: has dreams where she looks through other peoples eyes during major disastors, predicts earthquakes, shares dreams with strangers she's never met and later meets them and discovers they remember the dreams too / Me: can't even connect with my dead loved ones in a dream / Her: often connects in dreams with a mutual friend (also v. gifted) and then the two of them pulled me into the dream so the 3 of us could have a picnic at her grandmothers farm. Treasured experiences and my whole view of life has been altered by our friendship.
There's so much more to explaining my feelings but I have to shorten this...
So she has had this deep faith since she was a little girl in God and the bible. Her faith buoyed my own new experience of God and the profound love and healing I receive. But recently, she decided to study the bible by reverse translating parts and forward translating to English again in a scholarly effort to correct understandings. The result is she became obsessed with the story of the "end times". She says we're in it and I have to get right with god and bursts into tears with concern for me. It's clear that right now I am cursed to spend eternity in Hell. She says she will never give up on me but she says only 120,000 people will be saved. The Earth is 5000 years old. The Bible is the literal truth and is the only true source of knowledge. Catholics are going to hell. Gays going to hell. Noahs ark.. Every Muslim is a monster. Everything '...is an abomination' type stuff. All the same shit I have been astonished to learn people believe in this day and age.
So she says aliens are demons, UFO's are demons, now she doesn't have spirit guides-those were demons. Psychic abilities are the work of Satan (unless you ask God to give you whatever of that you might need to fulfil his needs and thus rationalizing her still persisting gifts). She says she feels so much better since she fully turned her whole life over to gods will. No doubt. Just color inside the lines.
So I have to drop to my knees in prayer and turn my life over to God, forget the search for understanding of UFO's and psi and that life and God is mystery. She actually said to me last night "what mystery?" Name ANY other faith-it's evil. Eat, sleep, pray and "prepare for the horror about to come"-heads will be cut off, children raped, UFOs' will flood the sky in an effort to make us believe it's Jesus return when really it's a false flag by Satan. All her words.
The only horror to me is that she has lost her mind. This kind of conversion rarely retreats so she has essentially been dragged off and replaced with a zombie.
Fuck the bible and it's curse on mankind. It might as well have been cancer.