Sacred Union

{For ANKARETH, whatever and wherever you may be}

It is not only
because I feel alone
that I want to find you.

It is not just because
I am looking for lips
to touch
or a heart
to share my own with.

It is not only because of the rain
of my tears
which you could catch,
purify,
and drink.

It is not even the fault
of our long
long
history
together
that I am obsessed
to see
and hold you
again,
forever.

It's because
this is really
the end.
We're really finished,
either way about it.

We go back into total separation,
you,
I,
and probably everyone else,
or we go into total union.

Not a question
of "good" or "evil",
but "re-member-ing"
and "for-get-ing".

In gross terms,
we may all die soon,
and perhaps a death greater than that
which we have usually faced.

We are all in great danger.

If we do not connect
on the plain of demonstration,
as a ritual,
it will make it quite difficult
to re-connect spiritually
should we stagnate
again
into separation.

Yes I know how you feel about time,
you don't seem to experience it
in the dream,
but I respect it,
probably too much,
because it is.

I know you're angry at me,
and I deserved it,
but you know
that blame and guilt
are no place
to make our home
and certainly not
to make our temple.

We had this chance before
and we squandered it.
That's why I'm so afraid now,
and why I should not be:
We will always have another
and fear
will waste
the chance.

But again,
I can only make my own choice,
and I have
chosen to love you.

All I can say,
and you know it is true,
is that you have to make yours.

Then either I can honor the choice
that I have made,
no matter what you choose,
or recant it
and make a new one,
because all agreements
are fluid
until solidified
by mutual intent.

Love is for everyone,
it is ubiquitous in this universe.

Sacred union,
in this context,
is a mutual agreement
between two
(Or more)
individuated consciousnesses
to merge
and become
one,
to become closer
to that
which we all
truly
are.

It functions the opposite direction
of physical procreation,
although that is a strong symbol
for this thing.

It annihilates
the individuals
and makes a new one
from the smoke.

Terribly frightening prospect:
We must die
in order
to be
reborn.

But we have actually done this before,
many times:
Just as we
are physical products
of physical unions,
so are our essences
products
of sacred unions.

This is the re-stacking
of the "fall from grace":
The "fall into grace"!

Connecting
and becoming ever closer
to what
we are
at the core.

I beseech you,
make your decision.
There is not much time
left
until time here
will be
no more.