Beloved TT friends,
I'm feeling quite sad right now about the amount of blaming, divisiveness, and even lack of respect that has gone on at times in our portal. Though there are clearly many wonderful things going on here, too, I've had to let go of my dream of what could have been. It's clear that my leadership role here (which I've done my best to minimize) is not valued by a number of members. I sincerely apologize for any way I may have disempowered or disrespected any of you.
It's amazing to me that even this wonderful group of people who I know are deeply committed to transformation through love and empowerment are not able to consistently communicate from a place of love and support. I feel like I better understand now why the world is in its current state. If we can't do it, how can we hope that our world's leaders, who in general are much less committed to transformation than we are, can do it?
One particularly sad thing for me is that it seems the loudest voices are sometimes the most critical, which seems to cause some of the softer, more supportive voices to retreat. Andrey, Beth, and I have felt exceedingly little support and compassion for the difficult decisions we've had to make regarding Riversong and other matters. Even if people felt that we made the wrong decisions, it would be nice if more than just one or two TT members had some compassion and acknowledged that we are trying our best to do what we believe is best for our fledgling community.
There is clearly some deep work in myself I need to do on this. It's a powerful opportunity to use ho'oponopono and breathe sacred love with all of you. I am thankful to know without a doubt that this is potent material for personal growth for me. You take care, and may we find ever more ways to move from love and support in our communications.
With love, sadness, and warm wishes,
P.S. Many thanks to those who have expressed some compassion.