autumnal dream

just an example of the 'dream state', something that came up for me a few months ago. inner work can bring up much that we arent aware of while we suppose we are 'awake'. *smiles* 

i am alone in a purely white room. white bed, white walls, white shades, wearing white. nothing of any color at all. none. my whole world is white.
i hear something outside. an animal crying. a dog crying. a dog i used to have. the only one that was ever 'MY' dog- Buckwheat. i loved her very very much. 
i go outside. (now everything is extremely vividly coloured) everything green, the banks of a river flowing quickly by. she is standing there with a snapping turtle next to her as big as she is. they are both covered with blood. very vivid healing green and very bright red blood. i feel momentarily almost hysterical.
i am not afraid of the turtle, i am afraid for the dog. i pick her up and hold her wanting to help her. there is no time. i hold her in my arms as she dies.
i am heartbroken at the loss, i am angry at the turtle-but not afraid of it. as i'm wrestling with my anger and my knowing that animals react instinctually i hear rustling in the brush. i am next to a riverbed where i have laid her down. i cry.
something - i cant say it was an alligator, no teeth like that, legless, wide but serpent-like (smiling like something out of a childrens cartoon) swallows the turtle whole, making me momentarily glad - feeling like it deserved to be swallowed up - i can see the outline of the turtle in it's belly.
then the serpentine thing ( i am not clear what to call it) turns and smiles at me, turns on itself, swallows its tail and vanishes into thin air.

I know what the dream symbolism here is to me - just thought I'd put it out there. dream the dream. Namaste.