Over the last few months I’ve been having additional health challenges with vertigo – a new thing for me – not just fleeting light-headedness, but full blown can’t-walk dizziness with nausea and vomiting, lasting for hours. Now I do realise that this isn’t the worse sort of challenge we can have, but it certainly isn’t pleasant and not something I would consciously welcome. Until last week the timing of these episodes has been noticeably kind to me, not falling during my working days and I’ve thought how difficult it would be if I had a severe bout at work – which is exactly what happened last week. The Universe obliges us by giving us the situations we dread, so that we can get through them one way or another, and then we can move on (hopefully).
I feel this may be an ongoing lesson (with a lot of consolidation!) but so far, things I’ve learned from this:
- Being more appreciative and grateful for the times when I’m feeling ‘normal’ and able to function (feels like a weight has physically been lifted off me)
- Becoming aware of my tendency to want to micro-manage situations and the need to trust that others can do what’s necessary without my guidance – None of us is indispensible, but sometimes we need to be forcibly made to give others their freedom to act and grow – reminds me of poor Gregor in Die Verwandlung – how sad was that? .
- Being more patient and compassionate towards those who are struggling with their own challenges where I’m able to give help and support.
- Being more humble and willing to ask for accept help from others when my natural tendency is for being independent, specifically not being ‘needy’ and sorting things out on my own as far as I can. Giving and receiving are two faces of the same coin and for balance we need to be able to do both.
- Testing my ability to trust in the Universe, that it will never give me more than I can cope with
Anyone else happy to share some of their lessons?